I know I have ranted about this before but I feel the need to talk about this a little more. Perhaps by discussing my fears I will be able to understand more about myself and why I fear the thought of having children. Is it my selfish ways that make the desire to have children completely obsolete? Is it silly to think that my freedom, my personal time and space will disappear as soon as a tiny being with its own mind, thoughts and desires pops out of my body? That is another thing...yes the belly sounds fabulous. I must admit that I would love to sit in bed and gorge on a giant bowl of cereal resting a-top of my big-ol'-belly but am I ready to have my bits and pieces stretched beyond imagination where I have to wear a pad the size of my a baby diaper after the beautiful but life limiting bundle of joy comes out?
I am getting to the ripe old age of making babies and yet my desire to do so is null and void. Friends all around me are getting hitched, buying their condos and destroying every one of my 2008 summer dreams of parties, camping and days at the beach sipping cold beers and gawking at the beach goers because they are "getting ready" (quitting: smoking, substances, and drinking too much) to prepare their bodies for a life long exhausting journey of raising a small person to become a socially well rounded human being who understands the difference of right and wrong and to hopefully become a 'good citizen'...whatever that means.
So here I sit and wait...only time will tell (meaning my internal clock) if I will be ready and willing or kicking and screaming into motherhood.
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I heart you and feel exactly the same...
Gretta xx
I think you're a good citizen, and a responsible candidate for motherhood, precisely because you don't take the issue lightly. In my view, having children before you're ready is worse than not having children while you can.
Don't feel bad for feeling this way - I know for a fact that I'm too selfish to have kids right now. Maybe that will change - maybe it won't. But don't feel bad.
I'm in exactly the same boat. I keep waiting for that clock that everyone said would start ticking, yet it never does.
No one is fun anymore, they all have to go to bed at 9 and make sure they don't accidentaly inhale any second hand smoke. They bum me out.
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